A Letter to Our Baby Girl

Luna Jane, 
I've felt such a range of emotions finding out your a beautiful baby girl, I've caught myself filled with fear over your future what things may be like for you as you grow up. I worry that one day when your older you may find out that your body may not work as it should and you may be told that having a family of your own is not as easy as some people make it look. Being told you were a girl left me over joyed yet so guilty that I may have left you with the difficulties that we've felt in being able to have you and your brother. I promise you my sweet girl that my arms, my ears and most of all my heart will always be open for whenever you need it just like they are for your brother. 
Sometimes things will not go to plan or just won't work out how you hoped but I will always be there to pick up the pieces no matter what.
There will be times people who are not worth it make you cry, there will be times people will come into your life and then disappear but that's okay because those people are not worth it and people who are worth it and will stay by your side will come along.
When you entered our lives as that tiny pink line this year had been pretty awful at times and you brought to it a bright light, after the experience of loss I never thought in a millions years that I would be sat here with you nestled up all snug in my womb us patiently waiting your safe arrival next year. How we've longed to for you my sweet girl, how we've longed for Oliver to be able to have a sibling. He loves you so much already, just the other day he was lifting up my top at the garden centre so that you could see all pretty lights and the reindeer, and he'll very often grab his blanket and put it over my belly so that you can be nice and warm when its cold. I can imagine you both creating havoc next Christmas with you crawling around and trying to pull yourself up the tree and your brother handing you the decorations from where you can't reach and I can't wait. I can't wait to take you on your first holiday even though you'll only be a few weeks old I can't wait to share those precious memories with you and give you something to look back on when your older.   
I'm so very grateful that your tucked up in there all nice and warm my tummy holding you until we can hold you in our arms. Waiting for you seems like forever but I know our patience will pay off soon enough. Every week that passes is one more week until we get to meet you. Thank you for coming into our lives beautiful girl. I can't wait to watch you grow, watch you change and nurture you just like your brother. 
Always dream big sweetheart. Love you always.